by manoypoe » Wed Feb 13, 2019 5:01 pm
VERY INSPIRING NEPAL
INSECURITIES : :
I always wanted to take part in Miss Nepal but I never got the guts to say it because whenever I saw Miss Nepal winners I looked at mirror and said to myself, "your teeth is so bad, your hair is awful, your face scars can't be hidden, your body is not fit enough", simply the things I lacked they were perfect in almost everything, I was screwed and more insecured. I didn't have different features, I was not different, I am middle class family girl, I didn't knew anyone from the field etc etc this all added more to my insecurities and I decided Miss Nepal is not my cup of tea. BUT my bestfriend forced me to fill the form of Miss Nepal 2018 and with all those insecurities I went to auditions, and the first thing I was told by the selecting committee was, what is up with your teeth?
I was dead inside, blank, I wanted to leave the audition room, I panicked so bad somehow I controlled myself, gave audition though the results were not out yet; i still returned home with the biggest smile because I had long list of insecurities and they only noticed my teeth? And when I got call after one week saying that I was selected for Miss Nepal 2018 as a contestant my insecurities were fading and when I won Miss Nepal Earth 2018 my insecurities were all gone because whatever was cooking it was cooking inside my head because I forced myself to match the standards.
So the whole point is, " It was never being different, it was not being the most beautiful girl, it was not matching the standards, it was all about who I was and what I wanted to be.
People are blessed who are different, who have everything that I want or you want but that doesn't makes me or anyone less because no one is same, no one is brought up in same way, it's our experience of life, our insecurities and how we overcome it actually decides our doings.
YES, I will have insecurities in future too but now my INSECURITIES will not overshadow me dreams and being same to same not different won't be a negative point anymore. : : This picture speaks how I rule my INSECURITIES : :
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